Far Away

I’ve been searching high; I’ve been searching low,

Shoving light into the crevices around,

Pushing through the haze surrounding me,

Rubbing my eyes incessantly to work under fire,

Battling the hot onslaught trickling down my cheeks,

Just for a single glance, just to know you're fine,

Just a smile, your smile, only to know you're happy,

I wish the thundering in my head would be softer,

I wish the knot in my stomach would loosen up,

I wish I had you, just with me, to keep as mine,

It’s so faint, the line between longing and belonging,

Your voice is the map; your words are the coordinates,

All leading me to a place I’m familiar with,

A look into my eyes would say it all, stories altogether,

A look into my heart would tell it all, values,

A look into my soul would tell it all, a mirror for you,

But I’m heading back to where I came from,

Well, that’s just far away from you.

Prophecies

It’s been a long time since the ink lazed on the pages,

I traced your name the last time, and now it’s almost gone,

Vanishing into thin air, leaving behind no traces,

A bulk of memories trailing behind, dropping back with time,

I’m stopping too, though not for you, but for myself,

I waited for you, I stood by for you, and I held myself back for you,

The nights grew longer and so did the darkness,

The clouds covered all there was, yet no patter of the falling drops,

It was all so easy for you, or so it seemed,

As I slogged on, as I wished for more, as I wanted more,

I should have known you didn’t care,

The rain scribbles on paper, blotting the words,

But not scrubbing them out, till the end of time,

There are so many stories untold, futures coinciding,

Paths meeting, and people too, just like we did,

It was madness to envision the long road ahead,

It was just a prophecy waiting to break through,

It was just a prophecy waiting to tear us apart.

Cast Away

I’m sweating in the sweltering heat,

Even though I’m right under the billowing cooler,

My breathing is heavy and my face is taut,

My eyes are focused yet lost in the maze of questions,

My thoughts are the haze around me,

Blinding in the cacophony of light shuddering around,

I wonder why I cared when even a shred didn’t matter to you,

I wonder why I asked even when you shrugged it all away,

I wonder why I stayed, especially when all you wanted was for me to go away,

You weren’t there when I wanted you; you weren’t there when I needed you,

Not just the prick of the needle but a knife in the back,

Yet I stood my ground against your pushes, I held firm against your shoves,

Until I decided to walk away,

The sun rose the same for me, and time passed as it always did,

All that vanished from my horizon was our mirage,

I kept on going, the ropes of our bond fluttering behind me in the wind,

I didn’t wait for the tug, I didn’t wish for the pull,

I didn’t combat the urge to turn back; it was just as though it wasn’t there,

But I expected it to come, sooner or later,

I wonder why I still care, 'cause it’s still the same for you,

I wonder why I still ask, as your answers are still the same,

I wonder why I came back, and the buzz returns to my ears,

I smile and trudge along, trailing in the shadows behind you,

Waiting for the day when your image shines along with me,

Or for the day when your shadow vanishes, taking me with it,

I’m hoping for a new day, for a hand to wipe away my tears,

For a hand to hold me up when you hurl me into the darkness,

The end is what I would never do to you.

Once Again

I walked away from the feeling,

The emotion overpowering me, silencing me,

My courage dwindled in front of my eyes,

Just the sight of you tearing through the will I had,

Words said breaking all I have, and all I had,

Dreams built on the whims of our presence,

Just for you, all made by you, for me to settle into,

You are a drug so strong I can’t believe you exist,

Your thoughts are my penchant,

Worrying, harrying, caring, that’s all I can do,

My words don’t flow when the jewels drop in your sparkling voice,

I stand awestruck, for your being is sheer good luck,

The promises we made bind me to you,

The moments we shared keep you close,

The memories we have will never be tears in my eyes,

All I want forever is you,

It’s a road I have walked on, a path I have bled on,

It’s a way guarded by the shadows of my past,

Tiny and narrow, yet so large in sight,

I may have set foot again; I cringe in the spotlight,

The crevices too small for me, again,

As the first drop spills, I know it’s not yet time,

It’s not yet time to walk the road once again.

Tsunami

It’s not the words which cause the pain,

It’s the silence which engulf the peace,

It’s not the darkness which hurts the eyes,

It’s the blinding light which tears through,

A story unsaid yet a dream come true,

Drowning in the undertow of the waves,

Gasping for breath and reaching out to the skies,

The whole life playing itself back in a second,

All those moments, all those memories,

I will forever remember your face,

Moist in the light and your eyes asking me why,

It was never you- the reason to stop,

It was only me trying not to drown in your tsunami.