He woke up drenched. Drenched in his own sweat. It was the nightmare;
the same one which always woke him up; the one which scared him too much; the
one which made him fear living the next day; the one where she left him and
went away forever.
The neon display of the clock beside his bed screamed out a time just
before 3 in the morning. He wiped the sweat lining his brow with the t-shirt he
wore and rose up to get a drink of water. Having forgotten the fact that he had
bruised his leg the day before, he stepped down too hard and as the spasm caressed
him with the pain, a soft moan penetrated his mouth. Walking back he checked
the phone beside the bed. The light shone loudly in the darkness, but there was
no notification. He slipped back into the covers; and the dream kept replaying
itself again and again. He kept on turning in bed till darkness overcame him
and sleep took him away.
His eyes opened as the rays of the sun shone through the French windows.
He rose and walked to the window to enjoy the stunning sunrise. On the way he
picked up the phone and said a silent prayer to keep everything all right. In the
distance, the orange ball glowed strikingly hot, and refurbished the dark blue
sky into a blanket of red and yellow; wiping away all of the dark from the
slate of the sky. But as he keyed in the lock to his phone, the message on its
display took the earth away from beneath his heels.
The brightness of the sky vanished in an instant; the murky and gloomy
night returned. The only thought which crossed his mind was the dream; not the
dream, it had to be a nightmare. It had been true, it had to be; now it wasn’t a
figment of his imagination, it was reality. The moment which he had been scared
off had come to haunt him.
His reply was short and concise. It just asked the details and what was
going to happen next. As the message left his phone, the clock chimed 8 times
to signify the early winter hour. And then he waited. Waited for his phone to reveal
her reply.
Thoughts flooded his mind; memories punctured his soul; and her face
danced in front of his eyes. The time they had spent together played itself all
over again in his mind. The walks they had in the park; and the never ending
talks. The moment when she first held his hand; and the first time she had
kissed him. All of the memories returned back to him. Everything flashed back.
Silence reigned as he slid to the floor, drowning in his own tears as
the sorrow engulfed him. His experienced 23 year old brain slid into action and
took command of the situation. The thoughts of sadness and misery soon were
taken away from him but the question still remained in his mind-what had he
done to receive such brutal treatment from God?
Had he hurt her so much? Had he been too possessive? Had he been such a
pain to handle? These questions flooded him, and as time passed, he started
becoming sure that it was his fault. He was sure he had been such a pain for
her. He had loved her more than his life, but he had made her cry. He had made
her suffer. He had done so many things in her life which could not receive forgiveness.
He had made her life a living hell.
Whatever be the matter, he would not go back to her. No way would that
happen. He would not hurt her again. But he would solve this issue first, but
her reply was necessary for that. The thoughts still hovering in the background
of his mind, he lifted up the phone which had slipped from his grip and lay
overturned on the floor and checked for a reply. There was none. He felt as
though he had waited for hours, but the display of the mobile phone in his hand
thought otherwise. It just displayed a minute past 8. Time was sprinting past
him at the speed of a sloth.
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