If Only...

The night crept on, and she wept. Her tears flooded the already moist pillow and made sleep impossible. She had to move on; she had to forget him; but how? She was unknown to the fact that he had never loved anyone after her, nor he ever would; his heart would always keep beating for her.

He turned in the darkness, unable to sleep. Thoughts about her  kept surging through his mind; and he kept thinking about the time he had spent with her; the long walks, the never-ending talks; the sweet smiles and the coy meetings. It never left him.

The mobile phone pinged with the message and announced that it was her. But how could he reply? Forbidden by his parents to be with his love, he had left her all alone, abandoned. She kept trying to be with him repeatedly but he had no option. “Why can’t she go? Why can’t she find someone else to love? Why doesn’t she accept it that it was my entire fault? Why can’t she accept that I’m bad for her? I’ve just hurt her and made her cry. I destroyed her happy life and made it hell!! Damn, I still love her so much. But being with me is bad for her. I know it, I just do.” With these thoughts, he shut off the phone and did not mind the message which had brought back all of the feelings and emotions.

She checked the phone for a reply, but there wasn’t one. The grief strangled her. She decided that she would never text him again. Nor would she reply. She would forget him, and she would move ahead in life. She could be what she wanted, and she could have what she needed, and she did not need him for that. But in herself, she knew she loved him even after what had happened. And she wanted him with her.

The mixed emotions left behind a trail of sadness and misery. What they did not know was that there could have been something different. An image thriving with happiness, smiles, and love.

If only they had tried. If only they had talked. If only they forgot what had happened. If only they accepted everything and held hands, supporting the other and keeping themselves happy. If only…